Let me eat cake!

I have struggled with my weight for 16 years. At my heaviest I was 254 pounds. This year I decided I wanted to do something about it. I look at those moms at the kid's school and as I drink my haterade I think about how they always look so put together; hair, nails, nice clothes, and perfect bodies. I imagine their cars and houses are all clean and they sit around and eat cake all day. It made me fall further into depression and I would go eat everything in the house.

2016 is the year for change! I visited with those ladies to see how they seem to have it all and what I learned is they just hide it better then me. They shared tips for how to juggle taking care of myself and my family. So I made a plan and put it in action.
First, I talked to my family and told them about the lifestyle change we were all going to do, not just me. Second, I started a group called Getting Fit in 2016 Martin Style on Facebook. I asked my family and friends to post their struggles and tips. It has been great to see even the "skinny" people struggle with the same issues "fat" people do. Third, I started walking the track. Soon I had a posse and we would walk after we dropped the kids off. We were up to 10,000 steps every morning until I stopped. We need to start that back ladies.

Forth, I hired a personal trainer. You would think in this small town we wouldn't have one but, low and behold we have Elizabeth Dyson. She has a Bachelors degree in Kinesiology with a minor in Health from Sam Houston State University. She offers a personal meal plan, daily motivation, fitbit challenges and private workout sessions. You are also supposed to send her pictures of your food but I'm never eating healthy anymore so I normally pass on that service. She has a plan for all budgets and body types. She makes me sweat a lot and it stinks, I hate to sweat!! She is so passionate about helping others reach their health and fitness goals and she truly makes me feel like she cares about my health.

Fifth, I started to attend Zumba with Tammy in Jewett on a regular basis. At first I could only make it through half of her class and I would have to sit. Now I can Zumba almost all the way through her class before I think I'm dying. I have learned my body can do some awesome moves. I leave feeling sexy, fit and beautiful. I get over 8000 steps in her class and a whole body work out.

Finally, Rob and Elissa Garza opened a fitness center called JTX Fitness in our town. Tell me that was a sign from the Lord that this is my year for fitness. Matt and I joined we are really excited about this so we can work on our fitness goals together. The Gym also offers classes by Elizabeth that I attend Mon/Wed/Fri Boot Camp at 8:30 am, Yoga/Pilates class at 9:30. She tries to kill me in boot camp but it is so worth the pain I guess.

I have contacted It Works,Plexus and Shakeology dealers but the truth is I don't want to take a pill or drink a drink everyday because I can barley remember my thyroid meds and the cost is a little high right now for us, however I do think the products work and I haven't ruled any of it out.

So with all the above being said the truth is I'm over it all!!! I wish  Elizabeth would keep my money and let me eat cake. I wish I didn't feel guilty when I miss Tammy's class and most of all I wish I wouldn't be FAT when I eat a lot of cake.I want to get back in a routine where I meal prep on Sundays and we only have fresh food in our house, but I'm tired of thinking about food all the time.

In closing I'm not giving up on myself just yet I keep saying remember why you started. Can't a girl go to the fat doctor??? Losing weight is hard, Maintaining weight is hard. Staying over weight is hard. I'm choosing my hard as we speak.